2.25.2014

An African Perspective

I met Charles while in Liberia, a West African country. During our first two days of a week-long stay we drove to some rural villages before arriving in the capital city of Monrovia. One of the villages visited was where Charles grew up. I met his aunt whom he calls “mom,” not because his mother is no longer living, but because he addresses any woman who is older than him as "mom" or "mother" out of respect. In a recent email I received from him, he began with "Dear Mom."   

Charles is a student at the West African Theological Seminary (WATS) in Logos, Nigeria. He was back in his home country to attend the District Conference of The Wesleyan Church of Liberia. Following his seminary training, Charles intends to return to Liberia with his wife and two children to continue bringing the Gospel to his own people. While driving through his hometown, and walking into his village, the many smiles and wave of hands demonstrated the love and honor given to this young man. 

I'll never forget one conversation I had with Charles when he spoke of a desire to visit the United States, and in particular, Dennis and me. Up to this point in life, his only travel has included just two other African countries.  The disparity between our material resources made me uncomfortable with the thought of a visit.


Liberia has been ravaged by two successive civil wars. Though a peace agreement was signed in 2003, the country remains in economic upheaval. Eighty-five percent of the population lives below the international poverty line. Most would agree that the state of the country was far better 30 years ago. Many people are fortunate to have one meal a day. Available resources we consider basic are significantly limited. To obtain gasoline is a matter of pulling up to a “station” and gaining what one might afford from a number of glass jars sitting on a concrete slab.

When I asked Charles how he had achieved education and protection through the seasons of war, he told me of how an aunt had taken him from his village to Monrovia when he was just three years old. He would be the only one of his seven siblings who would receive a formal education. In 1990, during the civil war, his aunt took ill and died due to the lack of medical care in the city. With no family around, Charles decided the best thing he could do was to go back to his village. He walked along with hundreds of others who were fleeing Monrovia. It took him a week to get to his village on foot (a 3-hour drive for us). By the time he arrived, his legs and feet were swollen from walking under the hot African sun and having virtually nothing to eat. The only thing that kept him alive was chewing on sugar cane.  


What would Charles think if he knew of our excess? I responded out of my awkwardness with "We have so much!" 

I will never forget his response. He held up his hand, showing me his palm, holding his fingers tightly together. “You see, not all the fingers are the same size," he pointed out. "Some are taller than others. Some are shorter. The world is not balanced. We live in an imbalanced world.”

Sometimes there’s no way to explain the imbalances that I see or hear about in our travels. The tall finger of wealth, the little finger of poverty. The destruction of war and the security of peace. The effects of goodness and the devastation of evil. But, perhaps Charles’ response is as good an explanation as any. 

The world is not balanced. To try to reason it out seems impossible. Simply put, we live in an imbalanced world.

1.10.2014

I'm in!

What do I even say after two months with no blog posts? This past year was my lowest year in blog posts since the conception of I've Been Thinking. Only 16 posts, when in past years I posted at least twice a month, if not weekly. 

My last entry was about our new kind of normal. Maybe the new normal has something to do with it. Maybe not. Regardless, 2014 will be different. No promises, but it is my hope. 

I could share highlights and pictures of our Nov/Dec travels to Turkey, then Africa, but I'll leave that for another post. 

I could tell of the peaceful and meaningful Christmas we had in MI with family or a sweet visit in PA with my parents and extended family.

I could tell of the sub-freezing temperatures and snow fall of just the past week, but many of you have experienced that yourself! 

So, what to say? 

Perhaps, the one thing I'll share is this: my word for the year. It's in. No, not that choosing a word for the year is in. In. is. my. word. 

I was going to go with the word engage. The theme I had in mind with that was to engage deeply with God and others. But days later I was struck by someone's Facebook comment. It was a response to a shared link that was encouraging scripture memory and they posted, Yes. I'm in. (Thanks Dina Horne! I bet you had no idea that one of your comments could have such influence.) 

I know it might sound silly. Really? That's your word? In? A two-word preposition? And, you got it from a Facebook comment? Yes. I did. I like it, and I'm already seeing it all over the place.

I see this little word lining up with this definition: to be enclosed or surrounded by something. 

For instance, Paul begins the book of Ephesians with a greeting: To the saints in Ephesus, the faithful in Christ Jesus. 

I live in Indy, and I'm in Christ Jesus. I love that this word is about being rather than doing. What does it mean for me to live in Indy? What does it mean to be in Christ Jesus? The answers have to do with my being. 

More from Ephesians: I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realms. Such an awesome thought!  

Or, a second way I see this little word fitting into life is this: to express a state or condition.

As in, I'm in love with Dennis. 

I think I'm going to have fun with this word. I know there will be times in 2014 when I'm in despair, but I hope in those moments or days I'll remember the positive side that in Christ I find my joy and peace. 

And, in 2014, I'm in when it comes to blogging! 

11.12.2013

A New Kind of Normal

I think I'm figuring out this new season of life. It's not normal. It’s abnormal.

A few months ago I realized that I’ve been trying to fit abnormal into normal since our return to the States. Maybe because we were back to our native country I thought things were going to fall into place like they had before.

There was a time in our lives when normal fit. Normal meaning ordinary, the usual, the expected. Life was regular and routine. For 30 out of 35 years of marriage Dennis and I had a reasonably structured life. When we served in local church ministry, our life generally revolved around the life of the church. Friday was a day off. Sunday was always a big day. Then we began the week all over again. 

I think this is true for most people. There's a pattern to life that keeps repeating itself week after week. You find a rhythm as it relates to your job, family, and the activities that you add into life. This becomes your normal. 

For the first 30 years of married life, we had four kids at home, eventually getting down to just one while the others were off to college or getting married. Highly organized or not, kids brought routine to life. It was as simple as packing lunches, helping with homework, and bedtime rituals. Routine came as life coordinated with school schedules, extracurricular activities, not to mention, church and community life.

Then seasons changed. Our youngest went off to college. God led us out of local church ministry. We moved to Europe where we served in missions for three years. The role called for frequent travels. Rather than thinking of life as week to week we worked life around trips, maintaining as much routine as we could in between travels.

In many ways Europe prepared us for the current season. It's been almost a year and a half since we moved back to the States as Dennis took on his new role with Global Partners, the mission arm of our denomination. We still travel a lot. Dennis made “1K” status on United, and I'll catch up to him on our next trip. That means we've traveled over 100,000K in the past year. We travel farther and longer now. Airports and planes are fast becoming a comfortable place. I settle into my window seat and I sigh a good sigh. Ah, a familiar place. I know what to expect. I can have my most creative moments at 35,000 feet. And, I’m always reminded of a Sovereign God who loves me and cares about the people who live below. A gift of the abnormal.

Where life once focused on a particular body of Christ, now we don’t even have a home church. We are rarely home on Sundays. On any given Sunday, we could be in another state, or somewhere in the world. Our lifestyle revolves around our travels, and that dictates where we might be worshipping. Another gift of the abnormal. It is a blessing to be able to serve and worship in a diversity of churches, seeing firsthand how God is moving in different parts of the world. I can feel at home wherever I am in the body of Christ. Maybe we come close to echoing John Wesley's journal entry: I look upon all the world as my parish, this far I mean, that, in whatever part of it I am . . . Yes, whatever part of it I am in, that is my church home. 

Thanks to technology, we can skype, email, text our kids from anywhere in the world. It really is an amazing thing. A gift in this age, time, and season of our lives.

So, I’m learning what this abnormal looks like. It's a new kind of normal, and what a gift it is!